Feel jealous. . .

Feel jealous with my friends. . .

Seem likes all my friend can found a good job.

The can enjoy there work everyday but i`m the only one have to stuffer. . .

They all have friendly colleges but my colleges is like different from them. . .

Most them have higher salary compare with me. . .

All of them are so luck can find a good job with friendly colleges . .. .

XXX

Seem like someone going have a problem due to she is not honest to someone. . .

He are trying to know u more from me but too bad .

He deafeningly out from someone list and my list. . .

If i cant stop him then u really have problem with him. . .

Dun too close with him and try to avoid him. . .

XXX

My colleges. . .

Their mood just similar with whether. . .

When their are good mood then i no need so stuffer lo. . .

When their are bad mood then i die lo. . .

But now getting better. . .

Hope can getting better and better. . .

Their name are:

Victor Lew, 34 yrs old, single
Derek Siew, 27 yrs old, in relationship
Kelmen Chew, 24 yrs old, married

If you guys want to have a look on them can go to The store, Vision Plus Optical shop or facebook. . .

Ok that`s all for today. .. .

Pretending being good to me. . .

I must learn how to be pretend like normal .

The more they close to me, the more scary are their. . .

Never too playful with them if not will get shot by them . . .

IS not easy to work at there and not easy to get RM900 at there. . .

Have to stuffer a lot of thing only can get my RM900 only!!!

Never trust a guy.

They will never keep their promise and easy to give up.

My heart just like a hollow tube and my soul is only one at there. . .

I looks happy when people like at me but. . .

That`s the end . . .

Feel lonely . . .

Finally i found a job at Seri Petaling. ..

My working place at The Store and shop is "Visionplus Optical Sdn. Bhd."

Salary is only RM900, no EPF ,public holiday and weekend have to go to work + work from 11 to 9.30 pm. . .

XXX

In school , i know everything but at there doesn`t. . .

In school very no need to care what we say but my working place hv to. . .

Every step i walk i must think carefully if not will get shot by supervisor. . .

Work for this feel days , i start to know this world society. . .

Is not easy to mix around with working friends and people in the world. . .

After working for few days i start to being lonely. . .

No friends that i know very well, go to work alone back also the same.

Working place even bored and lonely. . .

My dear still having her honey moon. . .

Even thou is difficult but is our part of the life. . .

Bitter then will be sweet in the end. . .

Although they shot me , i have to thanks to them cause they are giving me a chance to improve my skill in communication skill. . .

XXX

Xmas eve alone and Xmas hv to work. . .

Age getting older , thinking force to be mature and feeling become lonely. . .

I want to get rid of him in my mind ,is very suffering.

Now i only want to target a few things :

Be the best sale girl in optical shop

Earn a lot of money.

Forget something.

Feel happy everyday. . .

Ok i think that`s all for today,

bye. . .

need to blog out. . .

17/12/09
Day1 without my dear. . .

Without her i seem to go back luck and feel bored. . .

Usually i talk with her. . .

When i`m say she can listen to me. .

I get hurt from my parent and i cant tell her. . .

I have to stuff by myself. . .

XXX

18/12/09

Day 2 without her. .

Have breakfast with my sis and her friend. . .

Due to my sis friend is only interested on her. . .

Due to this reason i very hate him. . .

He is not gentlemen and very stupid. . .

He compare my sis and me

He say i look older compare with my sis. . .

This is my weakness and also all the girls weakness. . .

Seriously i will never go out with him anymore and he doesn`t deserve my sister. . .

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Feel guilty to my dear. . .

I promise work with her but now i find another job. . .

I hope she dun mind. . .

I really desperate for money. . .

I want money to hang out will my gang due to money i cant go outing with them. . .

I promise next trip i will never say no if din`t clash with my working time. ..

i finally found my job

Is in The Store, Optical Shop. . .

I hope my dear will not angry with me. . .

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Now a days doesn`t feel happy. . .

Even happy just for a moment. ..

Now a days always sleep around 3 to 4am. . .

I feel my heart is very weak. . .

I got something in my heart but i dunno how to solve it. . .

Maybe when i`m working slowly will forget about it. . .

Suddenly i miss GB. . .

I thought of every activities in GB .

I think of officer and i think out everyone in GB. . .

I think i should stop here

Bye. ..

Happy and also worry about her. . .

Finally ,finish SPM . . .

Hang out with my dear for this few days. . .

Happy for things happen around me but also got some worry about someone. . .

Seen like something going to happen on someone. . .

Just hope she will be all right and happy with it. . .

Hope nothing bad happen on her. . .

XXX

Finally can on9 , blogging, facebook and so on . . .

so happy that my brother can fix my computer. . .

Today quite bored. . .

Bored until keep my room. Now clean until half way but i lazy to continue la. . .

he he. . .

XXX

Yesterday have movie with my dear and KF. . .

New moon not really nice to watch maybe i din`t watch the 1st part so i got abit blur lo. . .

After movie 3 of us go mamak until 3 am. . .

My 1st time hang out until so late. . .

Feel like going yam cha to night until midnight again, he he he. . .

XXX

After Spm

I feel like going to clubbing with my friends but still hv to wait . . .

I want to buy hand bag. . .

I want to keep fit. . .

I want to earn money n go shopping. . .

i want to buys things without seeing there price. .

still got more. . .

ok gtg

bye

spm

Can i really can get good result?

Like what teacher say. . .

I `m the weakest among my friends. . .

She have no hope on me

She is disappoint with me.

Hope i can get good result. . . .

Hope i can proof to her that i actually i can do it. . .

I`m weak among my friends but i can do my best to get the best among my friends.

Although i cannot get 10 A+ but maybe i get all credit and some A`s.

I must proof to u that i really can do it. . .

Hurts by all of u . . . .

unknown 1

Almost every time u hurt my heart worst then i break up with my ex.

What u say i dun care to i very care with it. . .

Other ppl talk aout me nvr but cannot.

when u buli by ppl i help u but i i give ppl buli u din`t help me and u kick me one step. . .

My heart like break into piece. . .

unknown 2

U are the one i respect .

when u are in good mood u treat me good but when u in bad mood u treat me like adog.

After u scold me i din`t say a words because i respect u but i can`t stop my tears and i hv to hide at the toilet to clam myself down.

Why u always hurts me. . .

Both of u i would angry with u but maybe one day i will do back on u.

Pls stop hurting me