Money. . ..

Anyone can define what is money?

Can this world live without money?

Can i have infinity of money?

if can all my problem will solve easily. . .

if i have money

my mom wont worry about my tuition fees. . .

if i have money my parents wont give me any pocket money when i back to kl. . .

if i have money and now i wont sitting here and blog. . .

if PTPTN give us full loan(RM11500) , i think i wont be so desperate for money, , ,

Due to desperate of money i wont be able to eat MCD,food about Rm3 ,no movie,no tour around town . . .

i really dunno how to tell my her about this amount for this trimester. . .

can i call him to share with her?

the only way i can do. . .

Hope he understanding her and me. . .

end . . .

Finally ,both of us really break up. . .

He give ups and i`m also same. . . .

Duno why after break with him i always will think back last time do many things with him.

Is like missing him.

I feel relax after break with him but i feel bad because i kill him

i stole his heart for 2 years and i dam his heart away . . . .

i really feel sorry to him.

He really a perfect guy to me but i duno how to appreciate him...

If 2 years back again, he ask me again, do u want to be my girl friend my answer will still the same.

Why i will break with him? i love him but i duno why i dun wan him.

If we still have faint with him we will together again .. .

Sorry to hurt u but i know God is fare.

I hurting him same as i hurting myself.

But the pain will take times to stop.

I hope he will get well soon

Love

Our relationship is almost two years,

We got break up before but end up , we get back together. Break and together for many times and i think this is my last time to break with u . I`m tired with our love. I cant stand it, i want to give up. Now u cant without me but slowly u will forget about me. Times can make u forget about me. Just put our memories as sweet memories. . .

Many people ask me why i want to break with u . Yr bf treat u so good and u still dun wan him ar ? I duno what to answer they all. Which mean the problem is come from me. If u want to blame , pls blame on me. Is my fault , i fool u. . .

I duno what i can say with u anymore. I decided and wont change my mind anymore. Sorry to hurt u now instead of hurting u in future. Is good to u and me when we are friend. Let me go and let yr self to find a better girl that suit u. I think i would perfect a single lifestyle instead in a relationship.

If u want me to happy ,pls let me go. . . i need space for myself.

XXX

Break with u for few days and i have no reaction with it.

I think my love to u is finish. . .

I have no tears. . .

I`m normal. . .

I`m still wad i am . . .

XXX

I stay at Malacca for few months and i get use with it .

Now i can do all the things by myself.

No ppl help me. . .

When i`m happy i `m alone

when i`m sad i`m alone.

All this feeling i can overcome when without u.

I can be independent and strong when without u.

I dun need u anymore.

I can be very happy when without u.

that`a LL I can tell my feeling to u .. .

Hope u can see it . . .

EXPENSES

Hiaz. . .

Stay at Malacca really not easy. . .

I really going to broke soon after i bought my NEW!! camera at KL.

Is nice to hv a new camera but is suffering staying in Malacca. . .

I bought a LUMIX brand and hv 12MP. . .

Is much more better than Olympus FE20. . .

Becoz of once careless i break my screen camera during NS. . .

Service back the old camera cost me RM250 and the new camera is only 2x.

Which me i pay RM499 i can get new camera,better brand,better qualities, better MP. . .

So i decided to bought it.

And now i suffering of Pk soon. . .

Becoz i going to Pk soon i can`t join teokwando with my room mate. . .

This club cost RM20 for register and RM60 for the cloths. . .

So now i very "sen fu". . .

T___T

Problems!!!! + my new life in Uni

HI my friends, i m back finally.

Once come back after Ns seem like many problems come after me .

My new like in Melaka, my friends and my love. . .

I`m going to start my new like in melaka without my best friend.

I really very miss her.

But too bad we cant study together .

Without her my life like empty.

But i hope she can study well in PJ.

Hope no ppl will buli her ,hope she can stay healthy

Hope she is always well.

XXXX

My love

Duno how to write it out. . .

is very hard to release my feelings. . .

Dear faster come back to kl i really need u . . .

I THINK I`M GOING TO BE SINGLE AGAIN. . .

If break up also good de. ..

i can really focus in my study. . .

Feel jealous. . .

Feel jealous with my friends. . .

Seem likes all my friend can found a good job.

The can enjoy there work everyday but i`m the only one have to stuffer. . .

They all have friendly colleges but my colleges is like different from them. . .

Most them have higher salary compare with me. . .

All of them are so luck can find a good job with friendly colleges . .. .

XXX

Seem like someone going have a problem due to she is not honest to someone. . .

He are trying to know u more from me but too bad .

He deafeningly out from someone list and my list. . .

If i cant stop him then u really have problem with him. . .

Dun too close with him and try to avoid him. . .

XXX

My colleges. . .

Their mood just similar with whether. . .

When their are good mood then i no need so stuffer lo. . .

When their are bad mood then i die lo. . .

But now getting better. . .

Hope can getting better and better. . .

Their name are:

Victor Lew, 34 yrs old, single
Derek Siew, 27 yrs old, in relationship
Kelmen Chew, 24 yrs old, married

If you guys want to have a look on them can go to The store, Vision Plus Optical shop or facebook. . .

Ok that`s all for today. .. .

Pretending being good to me. . .

I must learn how to be pretend like normal .

The more they close to me, the more scary are their. . .

Never too playful with them if not will get shot by them . . .

IS not easy to work at there and not easy to get RM900 at there. . .

Have to stuffer a lot of thing only can get my RM900 only!!!

Never trust a guy.

They will never keep their promise and easy to give up.

My heart just like a hollow tube and my soul is only one at there. . .

I looks happy when people like at me but. . .

That`s the end . . .